my friend from england came to visit me from friday to yesterday. we've never met before but known each other online for...dunno...2 yrs maybe. so it was exciting to meet him since he has become my best friend. plus he's english, doesnt really know any german...and i love english, so yeah. we had a nice time although nice seems to be an understatement since i already miss talking and hanging out with him. one bad thing about globalisation and all that... since no one invented a beamer yet with which you can go frmo one end of the world to the other within a second. i hope to meet him again in winter, this time in his country. it is weird that hes away now, since ive spend LOADS of time with him during the last few days.

my boyfriend stayed at my place for 9.5 weeks this summer. he left today. we've spend day and night together although that isnt exactly true, considering that during the first weeks i still had to go to school and during the last weeks he did an internship. i got so used to living with him, i forgot what it was like before when we could only meet at weekends since his uni is about 200 km away from my place. i was eager to find out what it would be like to live together with him, if it would work. it did work, though not always the way id have liked it. there were good days and bad days but however i feel about it now, the goodbye didnt feel exactly good, didnt make me cry either. the distance will be good after all these weeks and still itll be weird to live without him again, the last hug before his train left felt so good, but it didnt reflect the whole summer.

back to normal then: my sis moved out in april, my bf is back at uni, my best friend is back in england - im on my own again with my parents. i dont like that, i wont like getting used to it again. im used to having ppl around me all day, even if i dont feel the need to spend every free minute with someone else. i got used to living without my sis but i dunno when ill meet either of the two guys again. well, i can see my bf again soon. but i dunno about my best friend and i dont like not knowing that. back to normal also means back to school in a week. but therell be a change, ill start my advanced courses, each exam result from now on will contribute to my final grades in my abitur.